A Diabetic Diet

Well...since I had gestational diabetes with Jordan, the doctors wanted to test me early this time. I took it at 14 weeks and failed just miserably. Naturally I cried and began the panic of all things that could go wrong. I got the call when we wee in Disney so had a hardtime enjoying my last day. I am so dreading the peanut butter and egg meals that will ensue for the next 6 months. I wonder what it is like for people to have a complication free pregnancy and actually enjoy being pregnant....because I will spend the next months worrying and have already wondered if I had this issue from the start, didn't monitor my sugars and have done irreversible damage to my unborn baby. People do crack and drink and I had a few cokes and twix to ease my extreme nausea. The only thing that is makng me feel better i that I was so incredibly sick that doubt much stayed down. The dr. didn't seem overly concerned...just said more ultrasounds and biophysical profiles...which honestly is cool...I get to see the baby more often. He may do a fetal echo to see the heart up close if he is worried. I just pray that my McDonalds love has not harmed my baby. It is hard being a mommy, being pregnant, gettting ready to go back to wrk, and adding multiple doctor appointments to my plate. We don't have family support but I know Rob will be my rock. Many people have diabetes and are pregnant...I don't know if I get it while pregnant or if having Jordan just took a toll on my body...not sure...I sure do suck at being pregnant!